im twiking my diet

so last week i had posted about the spink diet my roommate & i started my roommate is doing really well with it. i on the other hand should have thought it threw better. i think i can do everything all the time no matter what ok well not everything i thought i could do this. im have issues with my body that are makeing me weak & tired this problem started january 11th and hasnt stoped excet for about 2-3 days then started back up again i have had an ultra sound found some stuff that wouldnt cause the problem then a biopsy the day i started the diet biopsy came back normal wich is wonderful and a relif and im still haveing the problem anyway i was going to watch biggest looser with my mom last week becuse we always do it started at 8 well my dad went to bed at 730 yes he goes to bed early becuse he gets up at 4 am or before so while they were praying anxiety set in for me & i was getting ready to go home so when my mom came out i had the biggest meltdown ever. and i very rarely have meltdowns i was crying hystaricly becuse i didnt feel good (keep in mind i only cry when im extremly pissed off & i wasnt pissed i was frusrated & scared) i told her that when i get hungry i would eat then felt sick i was tired i didnt know what was going on with why my body was doing & feeling like it was then i really looked at moms face and i really wish i had a camrea to take a picture of it see looked so scared ans so worried (like i said this rarely happens the last time i cryed in front of her was when i lesft my ex 1 &1/2 years ago that was becuse i was pissed) she tried to talk me into sleeping over but i said no and left then for some odd reason i looed at my phone when i was waiting to turn onto the freeway i had a message it was my dad saying to come back and soend the night so i did (geez im tearing up writing about this) so now im just twicking my diet im not doing pink that part of it was makeing me weaker and feeling worse then i had im not opposed to trying it again in the futher just not now not till i get my other problem fixed it was just to drastic of a change for me so im going to eat healthier and smaller portions and drink more water



and now with one of my other goals for this year was living simply with that comes me wanting to organize my stuff better i have a cd carrier to put mu dvds in well actually i have 2 of them i had alot of dvds that were still in the covers so the other day i put them in the carriers i have 11 spaces left of the second carrier before i have to buy a third one. let me tell you that one thing alone has made a big diffrence. i also bought a desk last week from target.com for under $90 it came on friday i still need to assemble it i cleaned out the area its going in and that has made a diffrence in the way i feel i now need to clean the rest of the room & keep it that way

day #2

so this morning shake smothiee whatever you want to call it i call it breakfast was made with dates beet 12 strawberries hemp powder and coconut water it made a ton of it i keep drinking and drinking it at one point i thought i had drank half of it i looked down at the cup and sadly learned that i had only drank 1/4 of the drink so i finished it and was stuffed to the brim for a couple hours anyway then i had come to mom & dads to take mom to the dr (she doesnt have a legal car at the moment) so i picked up a salad for later and breackfast for her this is were i cheated the first time i was a little hungry so i ate the other sasuge mcmuffin then a few hours after that i was hungry again and atr a little bit went to the dr came back laid down for a little bit & finallyate the salad i had gotten where i cheated for the second time i put the wrong dressing and chips on it. but it was good on a happy note i went to sonic didnt get a drink only got one for mom and i brought girl scout cookies over to mom & dads and havent eaten any tom orrow will be better

when i was in the mtc (missonary traing center) my and my comp had to usr the bathroom alot that we named it "again" so all we had to say to each other was again so now that im drinking more water & have been eating more vegtables again has been my best friend today

P.I.N.K METHOD

my roommate carol was telling me about the p.i.n.k method its a program specificly for women to eat heaither & losse weight so i told her i would do it with her. to start off the forst couple of weeks you have a shake made with 1/2 beet 1 carrot 1 banana 10 strawberries 1 1/2 cup almond milk and some hemp powder (yes i realize hemp is marijuna) then for lunch and dinner you eat 4 oz of lean meat as in chicken turkey or red meat and 4 oz of cooked vegtables for snacks you can have all the veggies you want as long as they are raw we started today the sake was really good you can taste the beet & strawberries the most (if you need sweetner you use liquid stivia) and im finally eating lunch i woke up later then normal then ran errands and had a dr appointment and had to cook it sos im starving im probably eating a little more then what it says to do but it is the first day still

good bye dr pepper at least for now





goodbye ice cream



hello healthy food. this should be fun. here are the pictures from this morning

yea. i have alot of work to do. **sigh**