i have been thinking the last couple of days on what i wanted to post on this blog do i post pictures of my huge disturbing mess of a condo i live in? no not yet im in the middle of cleaning so when its done i will post disturbing disgusting pictures then the after pictures that will be sometime next week i have other plans for this weekend i will post about when im done with all the festivities with pictures and im hoping and praying i will have a spiritual experience this weekend i know it will be fun and i will love it im just praying for answers to my prays that im praying now

mow on to the post i decided to write about and since i wanna become a better person & like i said i was going to be honest here so here i go sevral months ago i got pulled over for speeding got a ticket & a ticket for not wearing my seat belt i was going 10 over & the cop said he would have let me go had i been wearing my seat belt i wasnt wearing it because the thing it clicks onto is broken so i cant click the belt in i will be getting it fixed as soon as i get a job so on with the story i had forgotten about the ticket forgotten to go to court and to pay for it fastfoward to 3 weeks ago i was at working driving down the road talking to a co-worker about meeting her to bath someone when i hung up the phone i got into the left turn lane not paying attention when the light turned green i flipped a u-turn then all of a sudden i see lights and hear a siren yes i got pulled over for doing an illegal u-turn in front of the cop i didnt see the sighn or the cop he goes back to his car with my stuff walks up again and says 2 things im still going to write you a ticket for the u-turn and you have a warrant out for your arrest my thought my one phone call has to be to work saying i have been arrested for speeding i got lucky the cop didnt arrest me he said the amount i owed wasnt enough for him to take me to jail i was relived he gave me the ticket and told me to call the court and talk with them about the ticket so i finally got around to it yesterday paid for the 2 tickets and am no longer wanted by the police

so now all of you can say you know someone who was once wanted

so one of my goals is to go to church every week and stay the entire time it is a 3 hour block of time i go 11 am to 2 pm so i went today and stayed the whole time im glad i did it was really hard to stay i wanted to go home really really bad i am always glad i stay i enjoy going to church i feel so good when i leave i have gotten into a habit that if im choughing from asthma i either dont go or leave early with the wind blowing really bad yesterday and today im not breathing so well like i said it was hard to stay

i came to dinner at my parents house we had chicken greenbeans and wild organic rice which is pretty good for you except dad put a half of square of butter in the rice i darnk a liter of dr pepper ate a huge brownie and had some ice cream with it o well i dont expect to change over night but i do need to do better

i started crocheting a stocking cap yesterday i only have 2 rounds done im still going to work on it and i also read out of the glass castle yesterday as well so good for me

in the last 24 hours

i havent done anything major for my goals i picked up a few apps in vegas and i have drank more water today then i have for awhile

bad news i ate taco bell last night then went to cold stone creamery got peanut butter perfection ate most of that then finished it this morning then ate lunch ate wendys drank a regular dr. pepper with the meal

did i mention im type 2 diabetic so i know better then to eat fast food ice cream and regular sodas im so used to eating that stuff its hard to break the habit dont get me wrong i also love good healthy food as well being signal living alone at the moment its so much easier to do drive threw then cook and im not to fond of diet sodas i tolerate diet dr. pepper and diet pepsi the best however they dont taste as good and most of the time im drinking diet sodas im thinking how much i hate the taste and should have never started drinking it to begin with

thats another problem i have im a creature of habit so i always do what im used to doing at my parents house the have diet pepsi and diet coke (yuuuuk) as the sodas in stock so if i dont feel like buying a soda i drink theirs and i drink alo of soda on the bright note o have drank more water today then soda

since i dont have to get up early in the morning (early meaning before 8 am) i can start cleaning tonight when i get home and i can read my scriptures i have my book with me (im at mom and dads since i dont have a computer or internet i use theirs) i can read from my book im currently reading the glass castle by jeannette walls its a memoir so far so good

im also on gooreads.com it is were you and your friend list can share what books you are reading have read and want to read and how well you like the book if you join its free and i will be your friend

(btw click on goodreads .com up above and it will take you the the sight)

reasons why im starting this blog

im starting this blog to be more accountable for my life i figure if im blogging about my life and how i want to change so people can read it. it will help me be accountable im going to be honest i will post pictures of the good bad ugly scary and very disturbing i will for warn everyone in the title so they dont have to read if they dont want to

im currently looking for a job mainly in mesa arizona i will be starting my search in las vegas nv tomorrow i will also be cleaning my condo so i can walk on my treadmill currently i cant use my treadmill due to the mess i have pictures of the mess & yes they are disturbing i will post before and after pictures when im done cleaning i will also be posting pictures of me now & as i loose weight i will post pictures then too.

i will be posting about church things on my mind im not using this to convert anyone to my religion however i will be posting about experiences and thoughts i have about what i believe.